Without a Broken Heart, You've Got Nothing to Sing About.

blessedinivory @ 2006-09-29T02:17:00

2006-09-29T06:18:55Z

Why is it that the only thing I am good at is fucking up?

blessedinivory @ 2006-08-05T01:43:00

2006-08-05T05:54:19Z

Dear Girls,

Fuck You.

♥Jason

Eh, shits annoying lately. I need alcohol.

Warped tour was fucking great. I hung out with all my favorite people there. I may have been on camera when Justin Sane from Anti-Flag passed me and there were three cameras in my direction as I pointed at him. All the bands I got to see were amazing, and I saw a good amount.

I've been an insomniac lately, but now since I'm not worrying about these two girls anymore, and I could care less, I may be able to get to sleep. Kelly told me way back that I need to sit back and let something good come to me, well...I thought it finally did, didn't work out. Ha whatever, I'm giving up now, just going to focus on being with my close friends. And Kelly is taking me out to parties with her.

And it feels good to have made up with a couple of people lately. They meant a lot to me awhile back, and now I feel good talking to them again.

And now a quote that has been in my head. It's American Nightmare, and it's been on my mind, and it's something that I'm going to...live by? for the time being. It goes like this:

"sleepless nights are hardly worth the cheapness of your game.
And if you know what I mean then live for yourself,
because life is too short to waste it on somebody else."

Goodnight.

blessedinivory @ 2006-07-12T03:22:00

2006-07-12T07:29:02Z

Bleh, this is lame. I can't sleep. Hate insomnia. I can't get my mind off things. A girl, friends, shit like that. I have been in a wierd mood today. Screw ex boyfriends. Heh, he's a fucker, and treated her like shit. She deserves better. I hate waiting for a call and not getting it. Because he was over.

Anyway. Nothing much new. I miss some kids, but yeah. Not sure if I will be hanging out with them soon. I haven't hung out with anyone really, just keeping to myself. Listening to lots of music to keep myself sane.

Since the last entry, nothing new. Had the tour with Misdeed and Marloneisha. Good times, aside from breaking down and spending close to forty hours at a Sheetz. But I love all the dudes I spent it with. I want to go to the beach in Jersey with kids from here and meet up with those dudes from Jersey.

...good times.

I am going to lay in bed now and not sleep haha. Dentist tomorrow. Update later in the week probably just to see if things look up.

blessedinivory @ 2006-06-04T02:58:00

2006-06-04T07:04:55Z

I love my friends, seriously, I wish I could talk to them about stuff more, but eh, I don't know.

Just...

Tonight was awesome, then just progessively got shitty, and now I am in a bad mood, and I am tired and I just want go away far and never return.

Anyway, the show was good, good friends, good people from out of state. I love our friends from New Jersey and New York. I want to see more of them. Like take a trip to New York this summer. Nick told me before he left to give him a call and head to New York sometime this summer. I would love to do that. I really need to get away from this place and the people around here. Though I would bring a couple heads with me, like I'd say AJ and Dylan and like someone else would be good company for a day trip to NY.

Whatever, I feel depressed, sick, tired, and bitter. I don't even know anymore.
Night. ♥

blessedinivory @ 2006-06-02T11:11:00

2006-06-02T15:27:48Z

Oh dip!
Writing in good ol' livejournal.

What the fucks been up? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

Here's what I was thinking about last night: All my friends that are younger are graduating next week. It brings back memories from last year. When I was like now I don't have to you ugly motherfuckers and deal with your shit talking and raving on about how drunk you got last weekend. I never gave a shit about you and I am glad I haven't seen you kids since graduation. Anyway, after getting off topic... I am just thinking, people like Wil, Dylan, Dan, Josh, and probably some others that I really care about...will they still be here? Like Wil is going to be in the are. Dylan, she's going to be in the city. Josh I'm not sure about yet, and Dan is going to Millersville. Not bad, because it's like a half hour away from my house. But these are kids I care about. And with my friend Dan Seifert going to school Like an hour and a half away, we lost contact a little, among other shit happening, but he is home now and I want to spend time with him. Just hope shit stays cool.

I hate allergies. They can lick my nutsack.

I've been listening to a lot of my old music recently. And I realize how much some of these cds changed my life, or at least made and impact and gave me a new outlook. I am bored and I feel the need to list them: Shai Hulud-"Hearts Once Nourished...", Thursday-"Full Collapse", Bane-"It All Comes Down to This", Anti-Flag-"A New Kind of Army", Shelter-"Perfection of Desire", Blink-182-"Dude Ranch", Thrice-"Illusion of Safety". Wow. Haha.

Enough for now. Hopes for a good weekend, boys from New York will be down. And make sure we keep the makeout slut away from Dean. Going now, update after the weekend fuckers.<3

blessedinivory @ 2006-05-16T14:50:00

2006-05-16T18:52:24Z

Dear Livejournal,

Sorry for forgetting about you.

A real update in the coming days. Stay tuned...

blessedinivory @ 2005-07-06T00:26:00

2005-07-06T04:35:13Z

Holy shit, it's been two months since I have written in here. A lot has happened in two months, as you can imagine.
Graduation. Damn, am I glad to be out of that goddamn place. No, I did not go to senior week. My reason: I would rather stay here and hangout with people I care about.

I am finally getting a new car. I should be getting it Thursday, it's been a hassle, but will be worth it when I can drive something decent around.

I need a second job. Anyone with jobs....do they need any help?

I love my friends, and I love the new kids I've hung with. I want to hang out with people more often I don't get to. Like CJ for one.

My relationship is going well. Seven months now with the same person, and I'm not sick of her. That's a shocker.

I had an amazing time at the beach, even thought the weather was shit. We got to see Abby, and six hours of talking in the car ride. Pizza Hut is amazing.

I went to a couple of good shows. The East Whiteland Firehall was mad fun. Cool kids, and shit. I need to go to more shows again.

I want to go to the beach again, real bad. I want to spend a weekend there. who's with me?

Who's going to Bane?

Dan is leaving for Canada soon. Er.

I love diners.

This is getting pointless.

I need new clothes, mmhmm.

Schooling costs a lot.

I am now tired, and probably going to bed now.

I am going to start writing in this more often now, that is, if cool things happen to me. I expect them to actually.

Goodnight, all. Leave me comments. Maybe it'll inspire me.

ps. anyone know a drummer? i want to start a grind band. we have two guitarists, and a possible bassist. haha. sleep time.

blessedinivory @ 2005-05-01T20:38:00

2005-05-02T03:42:38Z

Last night was a great night dude, one of the best in a while. Went to wc for the shitty show with Al and Christie. Met up with Adam, Dana, Christian, Dan,Tussey Mikey, and a bunch others. Lots of funny moments. Went to the diner with those kids plus Rachael and her friend.
Good times.

About three-four weeks of school left. Cannot wait. Hopes of a good summer. Trips with friends, hanging with Amanda, and doing lots of fun shit.

Out for now. Peace.

blessedinivory @ 2005-04-24T23:50:00

2005-04-25T04:50:10Z

.001. ] name: Jason
.002. ] gender: Male
.003. ] age: 18
.004. ] birthday: December 20, 1986
.005. ] height: 5'5
.006. ] hair color: Black.
.007. ] eye color: Brown.
.008. ] race: Bi-racial.
.009. ] is your hair long or short: getting long.
.010. ] repping: I guess 610.
.011. ] zodiac sign: Sagittarius.
.012. ] how many languages do you know: zwei. That is two in German.
.013. ] nationality: African, Italian, maybe something else.
.014. ] piercings you have:Two 00 gauge ears.
.015. ] piercings you want: Lip.
.016. ] tattoos you have: None.
.017. ] tattoos you want: A couple.
.018. ] today's date: April 25th, 2005.
.019. ] the time: 12:01

S C H O O L
.020. ] are you still in school: Yep.
.021. ] did you drop out: Obviously not.
.022. ] favorite grade: High school.
.024. ] favorite teacher: Mr. Rafetto, Mr.Gallo, Mrs. Miller.
.025. ] least favorite teacher: Everyone else.
.026. ] favorite subject: Englsih.
.027. ] least favorite subject: Math.
.028. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: Depends.
.029. ] play any sports on the school's team: Nope.
.030. ] are/were you popular: Nope.
.031. ] most humiliating moment: Too many.

F A V O R I T E
.032. ] number: 13, 7, 12. 17.
.033. ] clothing brand: None, really. American Eagle Jeans, maybe express.
.034. ] shoes: My dunks when i get em.
.035. ] saying: That's what she said.
.036. ] tv show: Family Guy.
.037. ] sport: Hockey.
.038. ] vegetable: Carrots or Brocoli.
.039. ] fruit: Apples or banannnas.
.040. ] movie: Anything scary. Or funny.
.041. ] magazine: Independent magazines, or Transworld.
.042. ] candy: Teopical skittles or Take 5.
.043. ] scent on me: Ask Amanda.
.044. ] scent on her: Can't remember the name of the one she uses, but I think its from VS.
.045. ] ice cream flavor: Ben and Jerry's Chunky Monkey.
.046. ] color: Blue.
.047. ] season: Summer.
.048. ] holiday: New Years.
.049. ] type of music: Right now...old school.
.050. ] thing in your room: When I get my own room once again, I'll get back to you.
.051. ] place to be: Out.
.052. ] band: Right now: Comeback Kid or Count me Out.
.053. ] tv channel: Cartoon Network- adult swim.
.054. ] junk food: Harvest cheddar sun chips.
.055. ] overall food: Pizza, some salads, chik-fil-a.
.056. ] gum: Bubblemint orbit.
.057. ] fast food: Wendys or Chik-fil-a.
.058. ] restaurant: A lot of them.
.059. ] shape: Haha, cylander,I don't know.
.060. ] time of day: evening.
.061. ] country: Haven't really been anywhere else out of this country but the Bahamas.
.062. ] state: California.
.063. ] boys name: Travis.
.064. ] girls name: Wow, agree with Amanda, but add a y, so it's Halley.
.065. ] mall: I don't know, there's always douches there.
.066. ] car: Anything that isn't mine, but hey, it does the job.
.067. ] word: word.
.068. ] month: July, right in the middle of summer.
.069. ] disney character: Woody. or the green dude in Monsters Inc.
.070. ] scary movie: Amittyville Horrow.

T H I S OR T H A T
.071. ] rock or pop: rock
.072. ] punk or emo: emo
.073. ] punk or ska: ska
.074. ] punk or metal: metalcore.
.075. ] rap or r&b: r & b
.076. ] rap or pop: none.
.077. ] classical or jazz: jazz
.078. ] metal or country: metal
.079. ] metal or hardcore: hardcore
.080. ] selena or j.lo: Selena has better voice.
.081. ] hot or cold: warm.
.082. ] winter or summer: summer
.083. ] spring or fall: fall
.084. ] shakira or britney: Lindsay Lohan.
.085. ] mtv or vh1: no tv at all.
.086. ] football or basketball: Football.
.087. ] skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding
.088. ] rollarblading or skateboarding: skateboarding.
.089. ] black or white: black
.090. ] orange or red: red.
.091. ] yellow or green: green
.092. ] purple or pink: lavendar.
.093. ] inside or outside: depends
.094. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol
.095. ] cell phone or pager: cell phone
.096. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: Powepuff girls.
.097. ] scooby doo or dino: Scooby Doo, he was always stoned.
.098. ] tattoos or piercings: Piercings right now.
.099. ] coke or pepsi:Pepsi.
.100. ] flowers or candy: I like candy.
.101. ] tall or short: Medium.

H A V E / W O U L D Y O U E V E R
.102. ] picture your crush naked?: Hm...
.103. ] actually seen your crush naked: No comment.
.104. ] been in love: Indeed.
.105. ] cried when someone died: Yes.
.106. ] drank alcohol: Oh yeah.
.107. ] lied: Uh huh.
.108. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: Nah dude.
.109. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: No need to.
.110. ] lie to the police: Hahahahahaha, yeah.
.111. ] run from the police: Yep. New Years.
.112. ] lie to your parents: Yeah, when I had to.
.113. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: No, no one would let me, im gross.
.114. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: My mom has once.
.115. ] flashed someone: Yeah.
.116. ] told the person you liked how you felt: Yes.
.117. ] gone to jail or juvi: No.
.118. ] stolen anything: Yeah.
.119. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: Nah.
.120. ] kicked someone's ass: Possibly.
.121. ] broke a beer bottle: Yeah.
.122. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: Haven't tried.
.123. ] kissed someone of the same sex: Nope.
.124. ] gone on a road trip: No, hopefully this summer will.
.125. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: In a way...
.126. ] been to a concert: Yeah.
.127. ] been to another country: The Bahamas.
.128. ] talked back to an adult: Usually at least ten times a day.
.129. ] got pulled over: Yes, twice.
.130. ] got in a car accident: Yes.
.131. ] broke a law: Everyday.
.132. ] given money to a homeless person: Yeah.
.134. ] tried to kill yourself: Haven't tried.
.135. ] cried to get out of trouble: Doesn't work for a guy.
.136. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: Yeah.
.137. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: Nah.
.138. ] dropped food on the floor, and let someone eat it: Yeah, it's way funny.

P R I V A T E
.139. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: Oh yes.
.140. ] do you have a crush: Sure.
.141. ] do you love anyone right now: Very much so.
.142. ] have you ever been in love: Right now for the first time.
.143. ] how many people have you kissed: Ew, don't care to think of most of them.
.144. ] who was your first kiss: This girl Megan.
.145. ] how many hearts have you broken: I do not know.
.146. ] how many people broke your heart: One, maybe.
.147. ] best quote to sum up love: Too late to think.
.148. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: The love of my life.
.149. ] do you have a picture of him/her: Yes indeed.
.151. ] do you have a picture of yourself: Uh huh.
.153. ] do you go by looks or personality: Personality, I hate girls with bitchy attitudes. fucking skanks.
.154. ] ever kiss a friend: Yeah.
.155. ] are you still friends: Yeah.
.156. ] do you smoke: Nah.
.157. ] do you smoke weed: Nah.
.158. ] crack, heroin, anything else: Pcp bitches. No.
.159. ] beer good or beer bad: Good.
.160. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: Haha, I drink Zima ::in a gay voice::
.161. ] do you like smirnoff ice: yeah.
.162. ] prefer beer or liquor: depends on the night.
.163. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: I used to smoke Camel Lights.

Y O U R F R I E N D S
.164. ] best friend: I have a couple.
.165. ] known longest: Hm...
.166. ] wish you talked to more: Dan.
.167. ] wish you saw more: Dan, Adam,Allison. Wish I could see Sam.
.168. ] how many friends do you think you have: Who's counting?
.169. ] who drives you insane after a while: Everyone else.
.170. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: Amanda, and Dan.
.171. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': Hm...not that I recall.
.172. ] craziest: I probably get that.
.173. ] loudest: - Myself, Adam.
.174. ] shyest: Dan at times.
.175. ] best hair: Who cares?
.176 ] can always make you laugh: All of them.
.178 ] best eyes: Amanda's green eyes.
.179] most athletic: none?
.180 ] most impatient: Me?
.181 ] shortest: Probably me again?
.182 ] tallest: Dan, Kate,Jeromy?
.183 ] talented: Everyone has something.
.184 ] best singer: Supposedly Adam is good.
.185 ] skinniest: Who knows?
.186 ] nicest: You can't be nice all of the time.
.187 ] best personality: if you don't have one, I probably don't talk to you.
.188 ] biggest drug user: I don't associate with druggies.
.189] makes you laugh the most: ask this twice?
.190 ] makes you smile: All.
.191 ] gives you a funny feeling when you see them: Amanda.
.192 ] easier to talk to: Amanda, Dan.

Y E S OR N O
.194 ] are you a vegetarian: no
.195 ] do you like cows: yes
.196 ] are you a bitch: oh yes
.197 ] are you artistic: everyone is in a way.
.198 ] poetry: maybe
.199 ]are you a fast runner: no
.200 ] can you ski: no
.201 ] are you british: no
.202 ] are you straight: yes
.203 ] are you physically handicapped: no
.204 ] are you fat: I think so.
.205 ] are you short: ehhh....yes.
.206 ] are you tall: no!
.207 ] do you own a hot pink shirt: yes, it is xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxl.
.208 ] how about orange pants? no
.209. ] are you evil: yeah, probably.
.210. ] is britney a whore: I don't know, does she take money for sex?
.211. ] am I annoying you: Not yet.
.212. ] are you secretly from another planet: Men are from mars.
.213. ] did you ever touch someone else's private parts: Yes, it was good.

W H A T D I D Y O U D O
.214. ] last birthday: Hung out with friends one night, I think Dan Adam, Al and Christie? And then dinner with my family the next night,
.215. ] yesterday: Hung out with Amanda, slept in her lap, got bitched at for her being home too late [10:00]
.216. ] last weekend: wish I could forget.
.217. ] christmas: Stayed at home.
.218. ] thanksgiving: ditto.
.219. ] new year's: Steve's dorm at south campus.
.220. ] halloween: Worked, made a candy bag and people bought us Candy. Thanks CJ and Kendal!
.221. ] easter: Church, talked to Amanda, work.
.222. ] valentine's day: It was a Tuesday, but the weekend was spent with Amanda, good time.

T H E L A S T
.223. ] thing you ate: Italian wedding soup.
.224. ] thing you drank: bottle of water.
.225. ] thing you wore that you took off: jeans.
.226. ] place you went: work i guess.
.227. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: pierced a vagina. No, this is a joke. I guess my ears.
.228. ] person you saw: Jeromy.
.229. ] person you kissed: Amanda.
.230. ] person you talked to: Jeromy.
.231. ] song you heard: Aqua teen Hunger Force theme.
.232. ] person you hugged: Amanda.
.233. ] person you instant messaged: Amanda.
.234. ] person you laughed with: jason- Jeromy, making fun of people at work.

N O W
.235. ] what are you eating: Nothing.
.236. ] what are you drinking: water
.237. ] what are you wearing: gym shorts and a tee shirt.
.238. ] any shoes on: no
.239. ] hair: nasty
.240. ] listening to: champion
.241. ] talking to anyone: No, no one else is an insomniac.
.242. ] are you pissed I made this so long: No,, it was entertaining.

O P I N I O N S
.243. ] what do you think about pop music: Always in my head when I hear it.
.244. ] about boy bands: Don't mind.
.245. ] about flag burning: Ask me in person.
.246. ] the war on terrorists: Fuck useless war.
.247. ] about suicide: sad.
.248. ] about abortion: up to the girl.
.249. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: hopefully married to a great girl, decent job, controlled kids, and still sane.
.250. ] who will still be friends with you 5 years: hopefully the ones i am close to now.

blessedinivory @ 2005-04-10T11:57:00

2005-04-10T16:03:20Z

Here's the deal,
Come Tuesday, I will be living in Malvern. In some apartment/condo until the house in finished being built in Coatsville.

Anyway, this weekend was pretty cool. I have a bad headache right now. I hate waking up with a headache whenever I didn't do anything during the course of the night to give me a headache.
Graduation is close, way too close. So are other things. I am making it a point to have fun during this summer.

That is all. I love my friends. I love my girlfriend. I hate kids from Aston.

blessedinivory @ 2005-03-31T23:32:00

2005-04-01T04:56:59Z

Dear livejournal,
Sorry to have abannoned you for a short while.
Anyway:

Jason would like:
-a weapon of some sort.
-a drug to calm me down.
-sleep for a change.
-dsl to start working so I can steal music from Adam.
-my ipod fixed.
-see some people I haven't seen in a while.

Jason currently dislikes:
-sixteen year old girls.
-girls with unescessary attitudes.
-My high school.
-not getting to sleep and then waking up ealry.
-shows/ lack of/ people at them and around here.
-drug addicts.
-kids who wear girls' jeans.
-sluts.
-the cut on my finger.
-People.
-verbal conflicts.
-not having been to a diner in forever.
-not being mean enough to fuckers.
-stupid online quizzes people post in here and myspace. Wow, how much sex do you like? How popped is your collar? OmGEeEeeeE!!

I am an asshole, and I don't care. Say what you will. I wish I was moving farther away then I am, and you probably do too. I need ish to do. I am mad. Shows I wanted to go to are sold out. Garbage and....shit...somethign else. Good shows are coming, I want to go Champion,but do not want to see Full Blwon Chaos, or any other bands I think. Eh, I don't know what elseto write in this thing, I am just so sick of shit. Come summer, I think I am going to do nothing but sit around and work or something, maybe call Dan every once in a while. And Adam scared the shit out of me...he had an entry talking about 8 weeks til graduation, fuck...wow. I am scared to death. But also not, glad to get away from these motherfuckers, and getting suspended for stupid shit, like throwing a snowball, and talking tomy friends in a stdy hall from the school store right in front of the senior lounge, or lack of.
Wow, I hope to god that I never start wearing a polo shirt with a flipped up collar, if I do, please kick me in the nutsack.

I want to learn how to do grafitti, maybe by the summer. I have a goal. Wow.

This entry is pointless and going nowhere, I just whine too much. Goddammit. I smell. Like Wawa. I am going to shower. My plan for tomorrow:
-School.
-Come home and clean out my car, and then vaccum.
-Get my nap on.
-then probably do nothign and sit online all night.

Take care kiddies. By the way, does anyone want to see Hot Cross May 14th, at the Rotunda? What the hell is the Rotunda?

Smile you fuckers, it can only get better from here, right? I'd hope so.

blessedinivory @ 2005-03-18T00:33:00

2005-03-18T05:35:52Z

I hate way to many people right now. It's funny because one is associated with someone I care for very much.
I'm sick of all this whacked shit. People, a lot. Tired of being sick. Fed up with stupid misunderstandings.

Upside- I am not going to school, and the dsl is going to be installed. So yes. I need something to do tomorrow night. That is all.

blessedinivory @ 2005-03-15T12:44:00

2005-03-15T17:45:42Z

Next weeek is spring break.

Jason needs plans from Friday- Wednesday, then Virgina Beach until saturday afternoon, maybe something fun that night.

Kids from other schools, are you on spring break next week?

blessedinivory @ 2005-03-04T23:58:00

2005-03-05T05:26:58Z

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Holland... Jason Holland.
Birthday: December 20th.
Birthplace: Dayton, Ohio.
Current Location: West Chester.
Eye Color: Brown.
Hair Color: Black.
Height: 5'6''
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right.
Your Heritage: African and Italian, what?!
The Shoes You Wore Today: Black New Balances. It's all about the newbies.
Your Weakness: Sweet girls, cookie dough, and good times with close friends.
Your Fears: Death and heights.
Your Perfect Pizza: Buffalo chicken pizza from the place next to Rex's.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Graduate.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: I do not use internet lingo, lol.
Thoughts First Waking Up: "Shut the fuck up!", as I hit my alarm clock. Then I think of seeing my favorite person.
Your Best Physical Feature: Badonkadonk.
Your Bedtime: Whenever my somewhat insomnia decides to stop controlling me and I pass out, roughly around 3.
Your Most Missed Memory: Preschool, where my ass was wiped for me and I got cookies, juice, and naptime.
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi.
MacDonalds or Burger King: Wendy's.
Single or Group Dates: Depends on my mood.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Arizona green tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla. Sometimes both, depends on what actually...
Cappuccino or Coffee: Chai.
Do you Smoke: Occasionly, not in a couple of months.
Do you Swear: Fuck, are you shitting me?
Do you Sing: Hah.
Do you Shower Daily: I try to, if not twice.
Have you Been in Love: For the first time, yes, currently.
Do you want to go to College: Yeah.
Do you want to get Married: I'd like to.
Do you belive in yourself: Rarely.
Do you get Motion Sickness: Nah brah.
Do you think you are Attractive: Not at all.
Are you a Health Freak: I am becoming one lately.
Do you get along with your Parents: Occasionaly.
Do you like Thunderstorms: Yeah, they're fun.
Do you play an Instrument: Nah, not officially.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: I think...
In the past month have you Smoked: Nope.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Prescription, and Nyquill. Love is a drug.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: In the past hour, have I?
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: Ew, I'm not that fat.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Yes.
In the past month have you been on Stage: Nope.
In the past month have you been Dumped: No.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Not in winter, but hopefully something like it will happen soon. Wink wink. You know...
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Most likely.If not your moms womanhood.
Ever been Drunk: Yes yes.
Ever been called a Tease: Uh, no.
Ever been Beaten up: Fuck nah brah.
Ever Shoplifted: Hah.
How do you want to Die: I want to have be having sex in an airplane, you know, joining the mile high club. Then, all of the sudden, my biddy and I get flushed out of the toilet. Luckily we land on a big mattress in the street, and we go at it again on the mattress when the drunken airplane pilots crash the plane right on to our unsuspecting, horny bodies.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: An adult.
What country would you most like to Visit: Italy, possibly Canada.

In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: My girlfriends eyes. They're amazing.
Favourite Hair Color: I usually like dark hair, I can make an exception.
Short or Long Hair: I usually like short.
Height:Uh, being short, not many girls are shorter than me...damn.
Weight:Doesn't matter too much, just so that she's not fucking Rosie O'Donnell or some shit.
Best Clothing Style: Origional.
Number of Drugs I have taken: Those days is over.
Number of CDs I own: Way too many.
Number of Piercings:Just two right now, until I move out this summer, possibly.
Number of Tattoos: Soon.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Everything up until now.

Life is good, I cannot wait until Monday. That will be good times with good people.

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-25T20:16:00

2005-02-26T01:25:12Z

Home on a Saturday night, with all my doors locked up tight. I won't be thinking about you baby

Except it's Friday. Only Friday. My god. I can tell this is going to be a waste once again.

I've been questioning my existance lately. What the hell, you know?

I need to stop fucking this up. At times I care a hell of a lot, other times I can't stand not being with you, and it pisses me off. You're always doing something, having someone over or something.

And I stand by a conclusion I have made. Girls all in a group in a sleepover or little party are obnoxious as fuck. Otherwise, loveable.

I need psychological help, desperatley, wow.

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-22T23:13:00

2005-02-23T04:14:26Z

I am the biggest asshole. I hate the person that I am.

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-21T23:29:00

2005-02-22T04:30:05Z

For a four day weekend, it sure was a disappointment.

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-18T13:04:00

2005-02-18T18:05:47Z

In an attempt to be trendy...
Ask me three to five questions, something funny, amusing, random, wierd, whatever...

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-15T23:57:00

2005-02-16T05:08:06Z

Current music: braid

1. first punk hc show attended?
Uh...god...maybe Bad Religion.

2. Last show attended?
Trsppe..can't remember shit bands.

3. Favorite punk/HC band ever?
Kid Dynamite, Agnostic Front, Suicidal Tendencies.

4. are you straight edge?
No.

5. Favourite era of punk/HC?
The rejuvination of old school punk influenced hardcore, and the origional punk influenced hardcore.

6. Favorite scene (time and location)?
Ha, New York, late 80's.

7. Worst scene?
West Chester ska scene.

8. Most memorable shows?
Thursday/Thrice
Converge.
upcoming Bane show.

9. Biggest live disappointment?
Having to sit through Copeland and Celebrity to see hopesfall.

10. Best live punk/HC band?
Converge, and I guarentee Adam is right about Bane.

11. Ever been in a band?
just joined one. Shows soon!

12. Best venue?
Unitarian church.

13. Worst venue?
ywca.

14. Who do you most regret not seeing (that you actually could have)?
Last Elliot show.

15. Do you own a record player?
yes

16. Do you own any colour vinyl?
Nah brah, I need to get down to philly with raffi.

17. Been to a "fest"? Which one(s)?
Yeah sure...

18. circle pit? mosh? kick box?
every so often.

19. Belong to any crews?
Death Chester waht?!

20. Favourite punk/HC 'zines?
Euphonic! Pastepunk...i think raffi introduced me to them.

21. Old enough to remember the Krishna fad?
Hah yeah, I believe Shelter..?

22. Young enough to be part of the Christian trend?
I shit on it.

23.
a) Were you upset when Green Day signed to a major label?
Didn't matter.

b) Jawbreaker?
Indeed.

c) AFI?
Who gives a shit.

24. Best labels?
Bridge 9, Facedown, Revalation, Victory ten years ago.

25. Worst labels?
Trustkill, Victory present, Bad Boy.

26. Best LP cover?
I am into Nine Orders of Angels doing Hurricane right now. Also, Punishment doing Reign in Blood.

27. Older vs. Newer?
a)AFI
Lame.

b) Throwdown?
either is fine.

c) Elliott?
Rock my pants off.

d) Refused?
You can't not like them.

e) Sick Of It All?
This is a must.

f) Converge?
Anything before "Unloved and Weeded Out"

28. How did you get into punk/HC?
Being a loser in elementary school and wanting to get into something different.

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-13T22:07:00

2005-02-14T03:49:06Z

(Friday was chill, hung with Adam and fucked with lame kids.

Thought that was a cool pic, we were trying to take one of this fat kid.

Adam tagged a wall in the parking garage.

Once again...this is sehr creepy.

SATURDAY

Got new shoes.

the way cool people who sold them to me.

AL and Sean.

Al and Jeni.

Blurry, but the ganrliest dude ever. Period.

Jeni has a rad tattoo.

NEXT WAS GROCERY STORE HOPPING. BREAD FIGHTS v1.0

Al attacking Dan.

best team ever.

Note: This isn't the first time Al has made Dan her bitch.

some kids were effing with us, so Christie and Al chased them around to balltap them. Can't see the kid [he's being balltapped by christie].

I am now scarred.

Al jerking the cows' utters.

Best magazine ever.

THE END.)

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-10T23:56:00

2005-02-11T04:56:53Z

I need something to do on Friday. Also, someone to do it with.

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-07T22:20:00

2005-02-08T03:30:53Z

Last Night= Amazing night, best in the longest times.
My whole weekend was kind of lame, Friday was rad, Saturday sucked.

Sunday, went to Amanda's house to watch the Super Bowl. Hung and helped her with homework, then Caitlyn came over, we all sat around and made fun of commercials that sucked. Yes. Caitlyn left, her mom went to bed. Tried to take cool pictures, but someone is way too picky about their appearance. Yes, but it was a fun night, I fell asleep while watching the Simpsons, and Amanda woke me up so I can get home, we both had to lie about what time I went home. Hah, did a fifteen minute drive in six minutes. I own.

So don't mind my attitude for the next few days, I will be bummed that Amanda is gone. Erm, yes. I need good plans this weekend. I want to take someone up on their offer of weapon shopping and drinking beer.

Goodnight kids.

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-05T23:22:00

2005-02-06T04:23:32Z

Drowning my sorrrows in a forty. Clt 45. oh yes.

blessedinivory @ 2005-02-05T16:39:00

2005-02-05T21:39:13Z

1. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.

2. I will then tell you what song/BAND reminds me of you.

3. Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.

4. Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.

5. Put this in your journal.

I will say anything.

blessedinivory @ 2005-01-24T21:15:00

2005-01-25T02:46:15Z

(1. First best friend: Warren, Dave...yeah, probably those two.
2. First love: Ha...Uh...erm...I don't want to answer this.
3. First real kiss: Some skank I don't talk about anymore.
4. First screen name: nofxskates311 I believe.
5. First pet: My dog "fluffy". RIP.
6. First car: 1991 Nissan Sentra.

LASTS:
1. Last cigarette: A month ago. I own.
2. Last kiss: Friday night.
3. Last good cry: September.
4. Last beverage drank: My half gallon of diet tea.
5. Last food consumed: Ew Amanda, I also just hard carrots.
6. Last crush: Before the one I have right now, I think it was...Areanna.
7. Last phone call: I called Amanda last night, last recieved call was from Dan, but I was sleeping.

RELATIONSHIPS:
1. Best Friend? Sure.
2. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend:Yeah kind of/I hope this evolves into that soon. ;)

FASHION STUFF:
1. Where are your favorite places to shop: Thrift...and when shits on good sale American Eagle and Express jeans are hot. Otherwise Kohls, JC Penny, American Eagle and such.
2. Favorite item of clothing: Jeans, sweaters. Shoes also.

SPECIFICS:
1. Do you do drugs: Not drugs, occasional marijuana during the summer.
2. What kind of shampoo do you use: Suave for men.
3. What are you most scared of: Heights, dying, ending up alone and crazy.

FAVORITES:
1. Colors: Black, green, blue, BABY BLUE, and some wierd earthtones.
2. Foods: Chicken salad, random salads, fries from the diner, pizza, cheese sandwiches at work, soups.
3. Subject in school: English.
4. Animals: Monkies.
5. Sports: Hockey, football.
6. Movie: Too many to name.

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Given anyone a bath: Nope.
2. Smoked: Yes.
3. Made yourself throw-up: Nah.
4. Skinny dipped: Of course.
5. Been in love: I may be right now.

CURRENT:
1. CLothes: Jeans, baseball long sleeve shirt, lamb of god shirt underneath.
2. Music: Since By Man.
3. Make-up: Nah bull.
4. IMs: Dan G, Adam, Angela.

LAST PERSON:
2. Hugged: Amanda.
3. Imed: Dan Seifert.
4. Last person who slept at your house: Don't remember.
5. Last persons house you slept at: Steve's dorm.

RANDOM:
1. In the morning I am: Cranky, ugly.
2. Love is: What I feel right now.
3. I dream about: Really Amanda? Crazy shit, usually things I am thinking about, then twisted.

Ten years ago, I:
1. Was eight.
2. A good student.
3. A funny looking little kid.

Five years ago, I:
1. was 11
2. I had a crush on....ryan jones
3. i had amazing friends.

One year ago, I:
1. A junior.
2. Seventeen.
3. A pothead, waste of life drunk, an asshole.

So far this year, I:
1. Have turned into an even bigger asshole, but if you're nice to me, I'm nice to you.
2. Fell in love.
3. Got a ticket and lost money.
4. Have a good digital camera.

Yesterday , I:
1. Dug my fucking car out of the snow for 45 minuets.
2. Worked and listened to the Eagles on the radio.
3. Had another long convo with Amanda.

Today, I:
1. Had a two-hour delay.
2. Got to see Amanda first thing, hug her, hold her hand, it was gold.
3. Took a nap.

Tomorrow,) I'm:
1. Going to school, (hopefully two hour delay again)
2. Going to talk my way out of suspension until Wednesday instead of tom.
3. Work after school, and drop off my citation before hand.

In one year, I will:
1. Be nineteen.
2. Possibly in college.
3. Maybe out of my house, even though I will be in a new house in a few months.

In five years, I will:
1. Twenty-three. Drinking legally
2. Maybe a real job?
3. No clue.

A - age : Eighteen.
B - band listening to right now: Since by Man.
C - crush: Amanda <3
D - dad's name : Eugene.
E - easiest person to talk to: Amanda, Dan, Travis.
F - favorite band at the moment : Hot Cross...With Honor, Count Me Out.
G - gummy bears or gummy worms : Gummy bears. Bears are huggale, worms aren't.
H - hometown : West Chester.
I - instruments u can play: Trumpet, kind of bass.
K - kids: Nope, not yet.
L - longest car ride ever: Florida.
M - mom's name : Linda.
N - number of siblings : One.
O - one wish : End bigotry.
P - pet peeve[s] : Things in my pocket, ignorance, hangnails, stupid ugg boots, girls that look the same. DREW.
Q - favorite quote: "Screaming gets you nothing" -American Nightmare.
R - biggest rival :Drew.
S - song you sang last : "The Kids that Still Believe" -Stand & Fight.
T - time you wake up : 6:37.
U - unknown fact about me : You figure it out...?
V - vegetable you hate : Brussle sprouts.
W - worst habit(s) Being honest.
X - x-rays you've had : Shoulder.
Y - yummy food : Cookie dough.
Z - zodiac sign : Sagittarius.)